“I grew up in South Central, Los Angeles. A close-knit community we liked to call ‘The Jungles.’ Although born in the south (1963), Monroe, Louisiana, the hard streets of L.A. is where I spent a lot of my time.
“At a very young age I recall being brought to church. Church has always been my foundation and I also learned responsibility at an early age working at a Convalescing hospital at the age of twelve.
“Growing up in the jungles I faced tremendous peer pressure. I wanted to be accepted by my peers, which led me into the hands of the youth authorities. It was not okay to rat someone out. Snitch on a fellow ’member' I continued to live by those rules until I got a taste of prison.
“I’ve learned from my past mistakes now and live to challenge young men growing up like me to reconsider the life choices made in order to fit in. Prison is not a way of life, and has been explored by enough individuals to keep a lifetime of youth away.”
—John “Apollo” Payne, 2015
SBB: Why do we join gangs?
JAP: Los Angeles streets are filled with gang violence! We have the old school die-hard gang members and counting. Every minute of the hour, more and more of our youth (especially) become gang members!
What makes some of us want to be a part of such menace-to-society activities and position ourselves to be locked up, confined, and executed?
Most neighborhoods are surrounded by gang affiliation. Every hood has its own identity, each represented to the fullest.
SBB: What do they stand for?
JAP: Steadfast is what they stand for, and the bond that runs between them runs deep.
Some people join gangs because it gives family structure, guidance, and security. Someone constantly watching, by any means necessary!
SBB: Is there a flip side?
JAP: The flip side of gangs is how to survive in South Central Los Angeles without surviving off the streets. How can drugs leave our streets when that’s the only way some people eat and pay to live in this world and its brokenness—even though it is the drugs being used that are still destroying our streets, leaving them desolate.
SBB: How do we get back our self-respect?
JAP: Discovering self-LOVE puts our life in direct contact with our God-driven purpose of what we are truly here for.
Healing the world starts from within, then spreads to others like a domino effect. “Each one teach one” will stir up the gifts embedded inside us. Tapping into these hidden talents will help create new businesses and open job opportunities.
SSB: What are the ways to begin to something positive?
JAP: Reclaim our streets, working with law reinforcement. This country has a Constitution. It is a great document. Let’s make it come alive, make it come alive for everybody, of any race or religion.
We are either a nation of laws or we are a war zone, and nobody ever wins a war except the crack dealers or the gun dealers and funeral parlor owners. We either love one another—I don’t mean love as a possibility, I mean spiritual love. That’s what makes us alive. Love as a tool of reasoning, love as the reason for being alive, the love of being alive; the love that make you put down this paper and get in your car and get on the freeway to South Central, get out your car and talk to people, and listen to what they have to say.
Believe it or not, they want to hear what you have to say. Hang with the homeboys.
SBB: Talk about the homeboys… no one ever talks about the homegirls.
JAP: They are on your pillow, and the pillow to a large degree rules the hood. The hood is a very sexy place to be. You hear it in the music, the language, the words, the way you move, the dancing; it’s Miles, Sidney, Lena Horne and Bouncee, Jimmy Baldwin and Malcolm. Malcolm had a great sensual energy about him.
The black man has an authentic sensual soul. Its sensual spirituality is what helped him overcome the lash and the lynch rope. He survived, he overcame, and he gave us the Duke, Louie, Bird, and jazz. And when all the pain is mostly forgotten, there will be jazz and our music.
SBB: You were talking about the homegirls, the girls and the gang life.
JAP: They are basic to the life of the homeboy. Life is a spiritual freeway, and your woman is always by your side on your journey, telling you what exit to take, and to drive more carefully, you got a baby on the way.
SBB: John, if you had one basic idea you wanted to share with our readers about gang life, what would it be?
JAP: Think! Think with that part of your soul that thinks, that part off your soul that thinks and feels love, the love we can have for each other that will enrich all our lives.
SBB: Thank you John.
