Chrissy Teigen is getting candid about her relationship with alcohol, revealing that she had relapsed following years of sobriety.
“Holly Whitaker changed my life, changed my perspective and changed how I view the [expletive] beast that is alcohol,” Teigen captioned a photo of herself holding Whitaker’s book.
“But to have to admit to all of you [that] I let it back into my life. to let a lot of you down, oh I feel it deeply. I was so proud every time one of you told me on the street that Holly and I made you want to rethink drinking, reframe drinking. I still am.”
The book explores obsessive drinking culture in today’s society, while providing the necessary tools to potentially break the cycle of addiction and the belief system around it.
“The truth is, I don’t know what I’m doing,” Teigen said.
“I one hundred percent know I like me better sober. I one hundred percent know I get more done, I absolutely feel better in my body without it. And I am one hundred percent pissed that I can’t be normal and have a cocktail with my husband on vacay without it turning into 8 and feeling like [expletive].”
Teigen, who is married to musician John Legend and has four children, further explained her frustration with relapsing but admitted the move has made her more mindful going forward.
“I’m tired of throwing up on a Tuesday. I don’t wanna feel like I need a shot to talk to a crowd. I hate that the thought of maybe having a drink can consume me some days,” she wrote.
“All I know is my relationship with the whole process of sobriety (and messing up) has changed for the better. I am deeply aware of where this can go if I let it.”
Teigen did not publicly state whether she is recommitting to being completely sober again, but pointed to positive life experiences, such as kids’ birthday parties and concerts, leading her in a direction of joy.
