Before the pandemic and the lockdowns hit, Barton had been 21 months clean from drugs. But the isolation, stress, and lack of human connection took a toll on him.
"It was depressing," Barton told The Epoch Times inside a recovery home provided by The McShin Foundation, a nonprofit recovery community organization in Virginia. "It bothered me a lot—it actually led to my relapse."There were no in-person groups for emotional support. Barton took part in some online meetings, but they had a lackluster atmosphere—he hid his true self. Being alone amid the lockdown, he thought he could get away with a one-time hit.
That soon led to him using heroin, crack, and cocaine. Toward the end of the relapse, Barton was experimenting with meth and acid.
"Stress goes on steroids during COVID," he said.
"One thing I try to impress upon people is that when you discover you need recovery, you've got to get the 'patience lecture,' because it takes about two to three years to reprogram your brain to do the right thing on a regular basis," he told The Epoch Times at his office.
Grappling With PainChris Berry had been battling addiction since a young age. His father was an alcoholic, his mother a drug addict. During his school years, he played basketball competitively until he suffered a major knee injury. He was put on opioid-based pain medication, which served as a gateway drug to his addiction.
Berry moved into McShin's recovery lodging in February after he got jumped and beaten by two guys for $26. They ended up breaking his nose. Despite his tough-guy persona, Berry said he actually had a lot of fears, and he relied on chemicals to mask them.
"In that process, I lost who I was by becoming so many different people and putting on so many different masks," he told The Epoch Times. "The authentic me was camouflaged so well that I couldn't find him."
Drug addiction "has been my pandemic for 30 years," he said, adding that addiction is a hidden problem affecting many.
"There's prosthetics when a limb gets amputated. But when your spirit is assassinated, there's not a prosthetic for that," he said. "It's hard because you can't spot it as easily with the naked eye from a distance."
Berry said Zoom meetings during the lockdowns failed to help him.
"I don't connect that way. I need to hug people, I need to know that we're reaching each other," he said. "I don't know that I could have gotten clean as a newcomer during this pandemic."
Berry broke down repeatedly throughout the interview as he recalled recovering and relapsing throughout his life. One of his worst addiction spirals was when he found his mother dead in 2017. He relapsed within 30 minutes and took a bunch of her pain pills as he was waiting for the police.
Berry said faith helped him to survive to where he is now, at the age of 46.
Two days after The Epoch Times spoke with him, staff members at McShin said Berry was found in the shower from a suspected overdose. He was rushed to the hospital and put on a ventilator. As of the morning of May 17, he was still nonresponsive.
In a text, Shinholser said it could take days to find out what caused the incident. He speculated that Berry took something spiked with fentanyl, or that it could have been a natural heart attack, as he was suffering from multiple health issues. Shinholser said if Berry passed away and it was confirmed to be an overdose, it would be the second overdose death that happened in a recovery house over the center's 17-year history.
The economic downturn caused by the statewide shutdowns was also a factor. During the pandemic, adults in households with job loss or lower incomes reported "higher rates of symptoms of mental illness than those without job or income loss" (53 percent versus 32 percent), according to KFF (Kaiser Family Foundation), a nonprofit organization focusing on national health issues.
Like Berry, Barton got hooked on opioids from a young age due to circumstances out of his control. He had scoliosis in middle school and was put on opioid-based pain medication. Later, he got rid of his addiction and became a mechanic for 24 years until he developed a degenerative disc disease requiring strong pain medication, reawakening the addiction.
Human ConnectionAs Shinholser gave a tour of the center and described the many programs it offered, some recovering addicts came up to say hello. They often mentioned that Shinholser's personal style, authenticity, and humor helped them stay.
Those interviewed by The Epoch Times said Shinholser and other staff members at the foundation saved their lives by offering them a nonjudgmental support group and someone they could trust.
"These people, they're angels," Berry said, referring to McShin's staff members. "You have to have a special thing inside of you to survive addiction, and then be willing to go back into it to help somebody else come out of it."
Many of McShin's staff members themselves are former drug addicts.
Monique Runge joined to get rid of her addiction to alcohol, a problem that began in high school. Runge told The Epoch Times she was so addicted that she had to take a shot every few hours, even during sleep. Otherwise, her body would shake and she would feel sick.
Like others, her addiction got worse during the pandemic lockdowns as she was isolated at home. She only ventured out to purchase alcohol, spending about $400 per week on it.
Update: Chris Berry is still alive and is slowly responding.