A 13-page suicide note was left by a Manhattan attorney who jumped from a building, clutching her baby. The 13-page note said that what she was going to do was “evil.”
The mother who jumped with her baby from a Manhattan apartment left a 13-page suicide note, which referenced “postpartum depression.”
Cynthia Wachenheim was killed when she jumped Wednesday, but her infant baby survived and was rushed to a hospital, according to reports.
“The note said she was not happy and she talked about what she planned to do,” said a source to the New York Daily News.
The 13-page note was described as incoherent and mainly was about how she failed as a mother.
“I love you. I’m making you suffer. You’re going to think I’m evil,’” a source told the News, elaborating on what the note said. “She thinks she’s a failing mother. On the last page, she refers to postpartum depression. She was supposed to see a therapist, but she blew him off.”
“As the note goes on, you get the idea she’s explaining why she’s going to do it,” the source continued.
The note also said the baby had a handicap, but it did not elaborate on what it was.
The New York Times reported that Wachenheim was on leave from her $120,000-per-year job as an associate court attorney with the Manhattan State Supreme Court.
Hours before Wachenheim jumped from the building, neighbor Christian Johnson said that she and her husband, Hal Bacharach, were arguing.
“When I came home, they were arguing. And I actually stopped to listen, and I heard screaming, and the baby was crying,” he told WPIX-11. “He just kept saying, ‘Why wouldn’t you pick up the phone, why would you put that stress on me? Why wouldn’t you pick up the phone, why, why?’”
On Thursday, Bacharach said that he was “absolutely overwhelmed with grief,” reported The New York Times.
“I have my son, who was lucky enough to survive, in my lap,” he told the paper. “It’s unbelievable. Right now my crying son is in my arms.”
Steven Dominguez, 18, said he saw the jump.
“I noticed a woman was falling. As she was coming down, she was coming down on her back. I saw the baby bounce on her chest and fall to the concrete. The baby started crying,” he told the New York Post.